Happy 4th Birthday Kamryn

Dear Kamryn,

Today you turn 4. 4!! How did 4 years go by so quickly? 4 sounds so big to me but in reality I know you are still little and we ain’t seen nothing yet. I can’t tell you enough how much I love being your Mama. I have such a feeling of pride in everything you do and I am so incredibly proud to call you my daughter. You are the sweetest, funniest, quirkiest, most wonderful little girl in the whole world. Still, after 4 years your Dad and I can’t believe you are ours. Kamryn, you leave us in awe us over and over again. With your sweet heart and how you care so deeply about everything and everyone. The silly voices and faces that you make all day long. How you always want to help and try so hard to be independent in everything you do. How you are cautious but confident at the same time. You are doing so well in school and are excited every Tuesday and Thursday to learn more and more! You love Logan so much and he is truly your best friend. Like true brother and sister theres a bit of a rivalry, but thats to be expected. For the most part you just want to love him, play with him, share with him and teach him. He’s incredibly lucky to grow up and get to look up to you. 

As you get older I hold on tightly to these moments together. Right now you are only going to school 2 days a week for 2.5 hours a day and the rest of the time you are home with me. You are really clingy to Mama lately and at times it can get a little frustrating, I’d be lying if I said otherwise. But I remind myself daily that one day you won’t be here with me and one day you’ll have a little girl of your own clinging to you. At that time I’m going to look back on these days and wish I spent every second I had with you here at home with you. So this house may be a mess and the laundry may be piled up and there may be dishes in the sink but I’ll get to it. As they say “the days a long but the years are short”. I promise to do my best to cherish every moment, good or bad, because I’m going to blink and its going to be over. You’ll be all grown up. 

Chances are you’re not going to remember our day to day life and chances are you won’t remember those times when I lost my patience, but Kam its our reality. I do loose my patience every now and again. Your mom is not perfect, far from it actually but you my dear, you make me want to be perfect. You deserve perfect. So because of you I try every day to be a better mother. To be the mother you deserve and the mother I know I can be. Being a mom isn’t easy, and someday I hope you know this struggle. Because as much of a struggle that it is, it is the most incredible job on the planet. I got the gift of motherhood when I was only 23, how lucky am I?! I get even more years to watch you grow and even more years to love you! Being a young mom isn’t easy and if you asked me I would probably tell you to wait til you’re a little bit older but for me? It was just the right time to become a mommy! I wouldn’t change a single thing!

So on your 4th birthday I want to remind you to keep smiling, keep that confidence that you have, continue to be sweet and respectful, try not to be so bossy (HA!) and enjoy each and everyday as much as you do now. You’re an incredible kid and as I often say, your Dad and I are so lucky that you are our daughter and Logan is just as lucky to have you as his big sister. 

We love you Kam Kam! 

Happy Birthday!!

Love, 
Mama

Christmas Jammies

I got my one “perfect picture”

And now some outtakes…

So funny & cute, huh? These two are hilarious! 

We’re so blessed!

e-cards

Don’t you just love these ecards? They are always spot on and so so funny! Here are a few of my favorites that totally describe me! And most likely most moms…

Now, if you’ve called me between the hours of 7am and 7pm you understand this. It seems the second I put a phone to my ear my kids need me for something. You know the usual, they get hungry, thirsty, they start fighting, get really hyper, throw a major temper tantrum, need a diaper change, etc etc. I’ve been known to lock myself in a room just to make a phone call….but usually theres a kid banging on the door from the other side. 

I have to admit we have yet to take a real vacation with the kids. We’ve done day trips and thats enough for me. This summer, I think, is going to be our first real family vacation. Which, if I’m being honest, scares me a little bit. Truthfully, no matter what you do with kids its work. It’s constant worry, constant watching, constant correcting, constant following. I don’t even get to enjoy a visit to someones house anymore. So yes, Target alone is a vacation to me. I don’t get to do it often but when I do….it’s glorious!

Oye! Shopping with the kids. I say a prayer as we leave the house, in the car, as we walk into the store. Please God let my children behave! For the most part Kamryn and Logan are seasoned shoppers. They do pretty good. Actually, Kamryn is really good. I will admit I do have to buy her a surprise 75% of the time but as long as she does well and doesn’t run away from me and doesn’t break anything, I’m happy to buy her a $1 toy from Target. And remember its not every single time! She seems to do the best when it’s just her and I. She loves one on one time! But…..Logan, oh Logan, he is a ticking time bomb. It’s like get in get out, as fast as you can! No browsing! Once he’s reached his time limit, it is on! I will not go food shopping with my kids unless Mike is with me. That is a nightmare! We need one person ready to take the kid to the car if they start to act up. Who likes food shopping anyways? I don’t blame them!

It’s so bad….I’ve never stepped foot into a gym. Like, ever. Never taken a boot camp class. Nothing! First of all, with the kids being so little, I don’t have the time. Second of all, I never had to worry about my body, I was blessed with a great metabolism. Well, until I got pregnant with Logan. Then things shifted, my body holds the weight differently, my metabolism changed and now…well lets just say I’m not so lucky anymore. This could be due to having two babies and this could be due to age, I think its a little of both. But someday I’ll make it to the gym! Until then, watching what I eat, my yoga videos, my elliptical and walks with the kiddos will have to do! Plus, my body made two pretty incredible human beings, so bad metabolism or not, they are 100% worth it!

Logan Michael

This little man could not be more of a mama’s boy! He’s at such a great age. All day long I get hugs and kisses. He often pretends he is sad just so he can run over to me, have me scoop him up and rub his back. He LOVES having his back rubbed! I am soaking up all of these moments because I know they won’t last long! He gives the best hugs and the sloppiest kisses! Those are the best ones!

Have I told you how much I love him? Because there aren’t enough words to describe it!!

His “cheese face” …..  to die for!!

Can’t you just hear him saying “cheeeeeeeeeeeese”??

Kamryn & Logan

Kamryn

Now almost 4 years old (only 30 days) Kamryn is my little BFF. She always wants to be with Mama and on the rare occasion that she’s not she always tells me how much she’s going to miss me. She has a sweet sweet heart. Don’t let that sweet heart fool you, Kamryn wants it her way or the highway and can be super bossy. (something we’re working on) I like to say she has good leadership skills. A typical first born she loves to be the center of attention and wants all eyes on her at all times. She’s quick to tell Logan when he’s done something wrong and usually before he gets a chance she’s quick to do everything for him. We often say Logan isn’t talking much yet because Kamryn does it for him. She loves school and is doing so well. She could not be more excited about Christmas but wants nothing to do with going to see Santa this year. Kamryn keeps us laughing all day long. Her mannerisms and facial expressions are hilarious! We are so proud of her and couldn’t love her more!

Logan

As you can see he is no longer a baby and is turning in to a big boy. He’s saying a few words (when his sister will let him talk). Everyday he repeats something new and most recently just started saying “yeah!” and still at 16 months still wants nothing to do with saying “mama”. He knows I’ll come help him with just a whine anyways, why call me by name, right? Logan hates the car, like HATES it! Cries the whole time. I’ve tried everything so if anyone has a magic potion send it on over! He’s still an amazing sleeper so I shouldn’t complain, right? He is the SWEETEST little boy! Always giving hugs and kisses and loves to cuddle. But only when he wants to sit still. He is a man on the move and is happiest when exploring. Logan gets his feelings hurt very easily. When you take a toy away or tell him no he always cries. It’s like you can see his heart breaking right before your eyes. So sad! But if he falls down and hurts himself he barely cries, if at all! I guess all tough guys have their weaknesses right? HA! Recently he’s really enjoyed being my little helper and helping me clean up the toys and put them away in their designated buckets. Most of the time he dumps them right back out on the floor but hey, its a start! He is getting so big and more and more handsome everyday! We love him so so much!