It’s totally cliche I know. “Enjoy it, because it goes by so fast.” Every parent has heard those words more times than they could ever count. But as cliche as it is, its true. It flies by!! I just got the information to register Kamryn for kindergarten and it hit me like a ton of bricks. This is it…she’s no longer a baby. She is officially a big kid, going to big school in the fall and thats it. She’ll be in school until she leaves home and goes off to college.
So as this new chapter of parenthood hits me I am clinging tightly onto these moments with Kensington. Having 3 kids means this is probably going to be the last time I have these moments. This very well may be the last time I get to kiss squishy cheeks, rub my finger tips through fuzzy hair, and listen to those sweet baby squeaks and cries. November 11th was probably the last time I would experience meeting my child for the first time, looking deeply into each others eyes like we had known each other forever. This is more than likely the last time I’ll have late night feedings, which people tell you are going to be hard but are so so special. The whole world seems to be asleep as you sit there in silence with your newborn and study every little feature of their face.
I’m ready to move on….I think. It’s still hard for me to mutter the words “We’re done.” Truth is, we very well could be done, we probably are done. Three kids is still considered normal, four kids is pushing it. I don’t know that four kids is for us. Which makes me really sad. Not because I feel like I’m missing something. If Kensington is my last baby I am more than fulfilled. It’s just sad that this is the last time I get to experience this beautiful part of life. So, I am making sure to soak it all up and enjoy every single second of it. Before I know it 5 years is going to fly by and Kensington is going to be going to kindergarten. I have no idea how I’m going to be feeling then. Where we will be or what we will be doing. So, for the first time in my life I’m not going to worry about whats coming next but I’m going to enjoy now. Enjoy Kamryn at 5, and her last few months of preschool. Enjoy Logan at 2, and his last months home with me before he starts preschool in the Fall. Enjoy Kensington as my baby, and soak up all her baby-ness. Treasure every single milestone we are about to hit before her first birthday.
This time with my babies small is flying by faster than I ever knew possible….
I’m going to do my best to enjoy it!
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