Happy (Late) Mothers Day

In honor of Mothers Day

I wanted to add this because I put it on my facebook yesterday and it was a post that meant a lot to me. 

I shared this picture of my husband and Kensie and I said this:

“This moment. This moment right here. I’ve experienced it 3 times now. If you’re a mom you know it all too well. All the doctors and nurses clear out of the room and give us some alone time with our brand new baby. It’s the moment where my husband stares at our newborn baby and I can see, right before my eyes, him falling in love. I swear to you I’ve never ever EVER, not even the day we got married, loved my husband more than when I see him falling in love with our babies. It’s that exact moment that makes me want another baby. It’s quiet, the world stands still, the room is full of love and it truly is perfection. I could live those days over and over and over again. So c’mon Mikey….just one more time, someday….a LONG time from now….pretty pretty please??”

The privileged of being a mother is not lost on me. I know I am blessed beyond measure to be granted the gift of motherhood. I am able to decided, along with my husband, when I want to have a baby and then after a couple months I get pregnant. Easily. Some people are not as lucky and I will never ever take for granted how lucky I am. When I say I want another baby because of how beautiful that moment is I mean it. But there are so many other reasons that someday I MAY want another baby. Let’s all not get ourselves in a tizzy because I said the words ANOTHER BABY. There is nothing in the world I love more than being a mother and a wife. I guess to the universe, three is a normal number of children for people to have, four (or more) is a number that most people give you the side eye. I’m not really sure why because I’ve always loved the idea of a big family. Every big family I have ever met was awesome. Their homes were so warm and welcoming. Chaotic, of course but fun. I always always longed for more brothers and sisters. (Thanks 7th Heaven and Party of Five) Call it what you will, the grass is always greener, you always want what you don’t have, blah blah blah. But I did. 

Let’s be honest here. I have feelings. People’s opinions on how many children are “okay” to have sometimes do make me second guess what’s right for my family and that makes me sad. The decision of whether or not we decide to add to our family is very personal, its emotional, its stressful, and its a very well thought out process. At 28 and 29 years old Mike and I have decided not to close this chapter of our lives just yet. Truthfully, I don’t know whats going to happen. There are days when I am all for it and then there are days when I say there’s absolutely no way! 

But one thing I do know is being a mother is amazing and its hard hard work. I give every single mother on this earth major credit for doing this job. Whether you have 1 child or 20. You are doing it day in and day out and without a second thought, you are there for your children and getting it done. Some days are a breeze and full of smiles and laughter and other days are the complete opposite. But even on the horrible horrible days there’s these children who love you and appreciate you and count on you and you do it for them. You love them like nobody else in the world. I thought I knew what that love felt like but there’s truly nothing like it and until you experience you, you just don’t get it. I think that right there, that’s pretty amazing. My children are the reason I am smiling, living and loving life. What’s better than that??

So, we shall see whats next for this mother….but, that moment captured up there in that picture. That moment is a beautiful one. One I am extremely thankful for and extremely blessed to have been able to experience 3 times. I will never feel bad or sorry for wanting it again…..and if that makes me crazy, so be it! I’m crazy! 





Happy {late} Mothers Day!