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Remember how a few months ago, I said I was going to blog more. I was going to post less on social media and IF people wanted to know what was up with us, they'd have to come here? Well, that was back in November and since then a lot of changes have occurred. Right before writing that post, I found out I was pregnant. I knew life was about to prove to me who wanted to be in my life and who didn't. There is something about being 37 and pregnant that REALLY puts things into perspective for you. On one hand with every test (and they do a lot) you find yourself so incredibly grateful when a new result rolls in and baby is okay. I don't take a single phone call that they tell me everything looks great for granted. Or last week when I sat in the ultrasound room with Kamryn and the high-risk doctor and she told me my baby looks perfect and I don't need any further testing, I visibly let out a sigh of relief. With this being my 6th baby, I sometimes feel like we are testing fate. But by the grace of God this baby is healthy and perfect, and dare I say super-duper cute! We got a look at his little face and Kamryn, and I instantly fell in love. 

Now this may sound silly but when I announced our pregnancy on social media, I really took the time to see who "liked" that post, who reached out, who was genuinely happy for us....and there were A LOT of people! My heart felt so full knowing this baby's impending arrival was celebrated by so many people. Part of me felt almost childish paying attention to this but I really really wanted to see who actually cared. This was important to me for a number of reasons, but the biggest reason was at my age I want to be more intentional with my time and who I share my life with. That includes social media and that may be weird in 2024, when everyone shares everything with everyone, even strangers, but as my life has unfolded it's how I feel. I'm so proud of my family and this life Mike and I have created together but why would I share that, even little bits and pieces with people who don't actually care about us? Makes sense right? I would hope people would have only good intentions but I'm not so sure. I could go on and on about this forever. But I digress...... So, kind of in an irrational moment I just decided to clear out my friends list on Facebook and followers on Instagram. I just felt like it was time. It kind of felt like purging my closet. The way I saw it, my two options were to do that or delete my social media completely and I really enjoy social media, so I didn't want to do that. Any who...it was great for my mental health and now I feel much more comfortable sharing a few snippets of my life with those who actually want to know what's going on in my life and aren't potentially sitting back and silently judging me. For those of you still here.... thanks for always being supportive and loving on my family, even from afar.

Baby Update!

I am into my 21st week and feeling so much better than before. The first half of this pregnancy was unlike anything I've ever experienced before. I am so happy to be past that....for the most part. I do think nausea is going to be with me until I have this baby. I'm having a thyroid issue that the doctors say is most likely due to pregnancy and unfortunately that comes along with feeling nauseas. But! I'm not getting sick anymore, so I will take it! Our baby boy is looking great! I got a VERY long ultrasound done last week and everything went wonderfully. He's healthy, he's cute and he's very much a boy! 

As for his name (because people have asked me this), we had one name we shared with quite a few people and have had a little pivot since then. So, if we told you a name, we probably aren't using that anymore. If you know us and have paid attention at all, this isn't surprising. But we did agree on another name and I'm 99.5% sure we will stick to this one. However, we are keeping it a secret until he gets here. I've told my siblings and maybe 2 friends and that's it! (I'm proud of myself for this! LOL!) Sorry to disappoint those of you who love to ask this question, but I do think we really want to have something be a surprise and we really don't want any opinions on the name. So, let's refer to him as baby boy. :)

As we get closer to this little one's arrival Mike, the kids and I are getting more and more excited. Once the morning sickness wore off things are flying by. In just 2 days I will be 22 weeks and then before I know it, we'll have just 3 months until my due date. I'm going to try to get on here and write more. I've got lots of fun updates about my other 5 kids I want to share. But we will see how that goes. I always have the best intentions, but life is busy, and the blog keeps getting pushed down on the priority list. But what's new?! That's life. I'll try my best to get on here more often.