Mother's Day 2025

 

I look at this picture and I just cannot wrap my head around how I am a mother of SIX kids! I do this every single day, yet still I don't know how we got here. Sometimes I play a little "what if" game with myself, "What if we listened to everyone and stopped when we had one boy and one girl?" "What if I really did stop having kids once I hit 30 (like I said was my plan) and we didn't have Smith and Archie?" "What if I listened to the statistics and didn't have Archie at 38 because I was too old?" No matter how many times I play that game with myself I cannot imagine it. There are a lot of things in life I'm not good at. I could sit here all day and write you a very extensive list of the things I need to work on. But being a mom to 6 kids, it just comes naturally to me. Somehow some way I can pull myself in 6 different directions and be 6 different versions of myself for these 6 kids, because they are all so different and all need different things. It really feels like a superpower. I will never ever forget the moment they placed Kamryn in my arms after she was born. I was only 23 and it was the first time in my life I felt true contentment. It was like "Oh, yes, this is what I'm meant to do." Nothing and I mean NOTHING came as natural to me as being a mom. That's not to say I've got it all figured out and that I'm perfect in any way because I am not. I screw up daily, I get overwhelmed, I lose my temper and like I said in my how do you do it post some nights I go to bed worried I missed something. But deep down in my bones I know this is what God put me on this earth for. To be a mom to a ton of kids when the whole world told me not to. When I look back at my life, I see God aligned the stars just right. I met Mike at 19, we found this great house that had many more bedrooms than we planned on needing, Mike got a new job at the absolute perfect time. Every single one of these babies came just when we needed them and could care for them in the way they needed. We never tested fate, we never pushed for it, it all just worked out. You'll remember I said I was done having babies many many times and I meant it, and I believed it. Yet here we are. It really is amazing when you have faith how life just works out.

Kamryn, Logan, Kensington, Tenley, Smith and Archie; YOU are my greatest joy, my life's purpose and the reason that I breathe. You've saved me more times than I can count when I was down and out and the only thing I could bring myself to do was care for you. You kept me going when I didn't think I had it in me and without even knowing. I am truly without a shadow of a doubt the luckiest mama on the planet. Every single one of you brings out the best in me every single day. You've taught me what real love is, patience, understanding, and even when I screw up royally you all still love me without fault. I don't know why God chose me to be your mama, but I can promise you one thing. I will always be here, I will never stop showing up for you and every single day of your life you will have the biggest cheerleader in your corner, no matter what you choose to do. I am so incredibly proud to be your mom. All 6 of you are so unique and amazing and leave me in awe every single day. Mama loves you! 

xoxo,

Kristen