The past couple of days have been rough for me. The stress got to me. It doesn’t happen all that often. I’m pretty good at making my way throughout the day and not turning into a ball of stress but this week, it’s thrown me for a loop for some reason.
I’ve been having steady contractions for well over a week now. They hurt and they come fast and we’ve had 2 or 3 nights that I really thought (hoped) we were headed to the hospital. Unfortunately, those were all false alarms and I was able to calm down, slow the contractions down and get some sleep. SOME being the keyword. I don’t sleep much at all these days. I really want to cry most of the time but I’m happy to report I haven’t done much crying. By a minor miracle! I’m 37 weeks and 4 days today, with only 12 days until we are scheduled to induce. The countdown is officially on and it’s making us all really impatient and really excited. My doctor is absolutely convinced we will not make it 12 more days. I’ve never gone into labor by myself so I’m convinced I’m going to make it. Guess we’ll see!
How will life be with 4 kids under 6? I have no idea. I truthfully don’t think I know anyone personally with 4 kids 6 and under so I’m going in blind at this point. Good news is even though I don’t know anyone personally, we’re not the first people to do this and we certainly won’t be the last. I’m sure it’ll be a tough adjustment at first, especially when Mike goes back to work. Sadly he’s only going to be able to take a day or two after the hospital stay to be home with me so I’m going to have to figure out my routine quick. Kamryn and Logan will definitely be okay. They, for the most part, understand when I’m preoccupied and do their best to be patient. They also very much remember when Kensington was born and understand sometimes the baby’s needs come first. Kensie, well she’s going to learn quickly that there’s another baby in town and I’m going to learn how to juggle my time as best I can as well. Patience patience patience. Of course our family has offered to help me but really, I need to figure this out by myself. How else am I going to figure it out if I always have another set of hands here? Time to jump in head first!
So yes, long story short…we’re anxious, excited, trying to be patient, we’re nervous, scared and exhausted. Oh, I’m already so exhausted! But mostly, we’re excited, feeling blessed beyond measure and cannot wait to meet this baby girl. Everyday Kamryn wakes up and asks me how many days until the baby comes and Logan has even finally come around to the idea of another baby sister. After months of him really hoping this baby would magically turn into a baby brother. No such luck Logi-Bear! I can’t wait to see her little face, kiss those soft cheeks and figure out who she is. Yep, we’re still playing the name game in the Sass house. Leaning back towards the original name. Fun times!
12 days! 12 days! 12 days!
I figure if I keep saying it over and over it’ll make me feel better. I can do this!!
Here we go….
